Jay and Others :> - My Ginormous Brain

I've had this thought that's been haunting my brain
Ever since I learned how to really think, it's been a long time
I've had this thought keep me up all night Ever since I can't remember, couldn't turn
out the light, I'm terrified And I'm one breakdown short of a nihilist

My whole damn life's a philosophical crisis Why am I like this
God knows I've asked to die before, but that's a piece of me
I've learned to ignore what the hell am I living for
We're just skin and bones and chemicals, I don't know what love is

I've never gotten that close, he said Stop acting like you know the world
Well, I wish I could believe in some kind of God
Maybe I'd be a better person and I wouldn't think so hard
And I do believe it'd give my life some meaning Some kind of purpose and something to believe in

I can't fear death when it leads to nothing It sounds so appealing
What the hell am I saying
Everyone's on the internet selling their face I don't wanna sell my face, I'd rather sell my brain
It's the only way I've gotten so far The reason why I think so hard

How I feel inside is completely unjustified I wish you could see the world through my eyes
It's black and white
We're just skin and bones and chemicals Don't think I'll ever fall for everyone I get so close
I'm a mess of partial philosophies And I can't believe what I can't see

They all come on a level past reasoning I'm sick and tired of all this healing
Goddamn brain, I feel the death of me And it's like
I don't have a chance
Goddamn brain, I feel the death of me And it's like

She's been listening to people say profound things through the speaker of her phone
She realizes they're something they have under their pretense
And they will never learn
So she screams I'm not just a fake

But it's a shame
There's something I want to get back before the day
I'm what you created
I'm nothing more than one day and he had just one thing to say

He said that's not poetry writing down girls
Just an excuse for attempting to explain more
She realizes what he created
And she's looking for a great song inside the picture of them all

A person giving each other dreams
Looking back through the cycle and I'm just thinking of him
Making his appearance again
And it really kind of scares me when I get this way

So full of temperamental logical things to say
And I've tried so hard to make it all go away
When thoughts about life start haunting my brain
But I can't go on another day

Because my weakness is my brain
It's just
But I see her pretty face on the screen
Just like the others in her profound vision

She knows it will be okay
She's got a name on the world
The psychoanalysts have really stopped pushing
She met a man who despised her age

And she ran off to get engaged
With a certain piece of life locked her in a cage
And she needed someone to give her a place
She's seen people like being told what to do

It's easier when they decide for you
So many are hopeless, quest for the truth
There's nothing out there to show you
So I said what could be prettier

Now I don't know what to do
My cynical mind is tearing me in two
There are parallels in every room
And now all I can see are shades of blue

I met that very same man again
He said
You're a pretty little thing
Why don't you understand

Stop searching and searching for something else
And for goodness sakes
Stop writing songs about yourself
Your life will be torture

In shades of grey
If you don't throw that brain away

Written by:
Hana Elyse, Jayden Vaughn

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